It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to

It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to

This week I celebrated another birthday.

Last year I went out with my boss and a coworker to a restaurant on my big day. This year I am unemployed, so no boss or coworker. Last year my sister Pam joined me the following day with cards and a cake and an afternoon watching Ryan Trahan videos. This year my sister is dead.

So this year it was a bittersweet birthday. My sister’s husband remembered, and my surviving sister sent hugs and greetings. A couple of Facebook friends messaged a quick “Happy Birthday.” And I baked myself a cake.

I’m Catholic, so I also have a new Pope for my birthday. (I was totally fine with Pope Francis, but we move on. So welcome to Pope Leo XIV.) I spent every weekday this week at daily Mass, three days at my home parish, and two over at another church nearby. I went to confession last weekend, and took advantage of the new Holy Father’s Urbi et Orbi blessing.

My niece-in-law treated me to a birthday luncheon, so I had that as well. My birthday was sunny but humid until late and then we had hail. It’s going to be that way for a while. More severe weather today, possible hail and wind and tornadoes. It is May in Texas. This is normal.

I got a bike a few weeks ago, and have been riding around some. I don’t think it is helping much with my weight. I need to start walking again. Need to work on my diet as well. Started growing vegetables in the back room. Lettuce is happy, but everything else is slow.

Doctor put me on an antidepressent a few weeks back, so now I have more prescriptions than I can shake a stick at. This is another thing to rope me into the constant cycle of doctors, which I hate.

My birthday was OK, all things considered. I would have liked to have had Pam here. This is the first birthday without her. It is lonely but that is the way it is when we get older. Everything changes, and we just keep going.

Happy Birthday to me!

Weight loss? Let’s jump back on the bandwagon now.

Weight loss? Let’s jump back on the bandwagon now.

I got labs done this week in preparation for a doctor’s appointment next week. Mostly good, except for the triglycerides and HDL which have plagued me for years. Also, my TSH is high, which means I’ll probably have my levothyroxine increased.

And my glucose was 112. Ugh. It fluctuates above and below 100, but has been above 100 more than below these days. I half expect any time now for the doctor to tell me I’m prediabetic. Regardless, I have all the markers of metabolic syndrome according to the American Heart Association (among other resources).

  • High blood sugar
  • Low HDL (the “good” cholesterol)
  • High triglycerides
  • Large waist circumference
  • High blood pressure

Mind you, only three are needed to be considered eligible for the dreaded metabolic syndrome label. Up until now, I’ve had four. I am on meds for high blood pressure, my triglycerides are high, my HDL low, and I’m a fatty. But my pancreas has thankfully behaved itself, in spite of diabetes running in my family on my mom’s side.

So if this is true, and my glucose isn’t just a fluke, I have all five markers. Yay me.

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WEIGHT LOSS IS MY NEW GOAL

Okay, not that new. But new for the first time in a few years, certainly since my sister got sick again. Last year, I was doing pretty good with walking. Managed 3 miles a couple of times before I injured myself last May. By the time I had healed in September, my sister’s cancer had taken a turn for the worse. She spent the last three months of her life bedridden and needing round-the-clock care. Meanwhile, I quit walking. I went back to convenience food.

In mid January, I was out of work. The last three months I’ve been a couch potato on junk food. I now weigh 199 lbs. At 5’5” tall, my healthy weight starts at 149 lbs. That is FIFTY POUNDS to lose!!!!!! Time to get back on that weight loss wagon.

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THE MEDITERRANEAN DIET

So for the next 30 days, I will do two things. NO FAST FOOD! I will prepare my own food instead and keep it as clean as possible. I am going to focus on the Mediterranean Diet. It’s healthy, my doctors have recommended it, and I like most Mediterranean cuisines (Spanish, Italian, Greek). Plus a few years ago, I had done Connie Guttersen’s The Sonoma Diet, which fair results. I still have that book. I might dig it out again for inspiration, though I have no plans to follow the diet itself.

The second thing is start walking again. At least 30 minutes three or four times a week. I’ll see how a month of this goes, and then re-evaluate.

If anyone has struggled with weight loss, feel free to comment. I know there are others out there, so let’s give each other some support!

Until next time…..